Momming is hard!
It is just as everyone has ever described it to me. Being a mother is the hardest and most rewarding job in the world. And that could not be more true.
As I sit here writing this I am kind of in awe, because for the first time EVER Jacob put himself to sleep. He is napping in his crib at this very moment, peacefully on his back (he has been a tummy sleeper for a few months now). I don’ exactly know how it happened. Normally I have to hold him a bit before his nap, and once I put him down I have to rub his head or his back until he doses off. NOT THIS TIME! This time was different.
He looked sleepy so I picked him up, gave him his soother, put him down in his crib awake and on his back and left the room. I assumed I would watch the monitor until he started crying and I would then go in and calm him down. But that never happened! He tossed back and forth a few times and that was it! I had to go back in to see for myself if he was actually asleep because I couldn’t believe it!
Now this is very abnormal for him, so maybe it was a fluke, but I will take it as a mom win for now! So proud of him. This has been a huge struggle for us (one of many). Getting him to learn to self soothe has been so so so so challenging. Partly because I think he just isn’t a great sleeper, and partly because I have a super hard time letting him cry even for a little bit. We are working on trying to improve things so both of us can start to sleep better soon! I will continue to keep you updated on how it goes! Until then I will take this nap as a good sign and continue to be positive!